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What if I told you that I failed my NCLEX twice⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ True story. I took the nursing boards THREE DAMN TIMES! I got all 365 questions and it took me 8.5 hours EVERY DAMN TIME.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Y'all , that was the hardest seven months of my life. And if you ask my husband , he would say the same. I would wake up every night in sheer panic because I thought I didn't study enough , even though I spend the whole day studying. I feared that I wouldn't be able to plan the wedding of my dreams , or have the job of my dreams , or afford a house. This list goes on and on. The emotional breakdowns were unreal. I even went and saw a therapist because I was not ok.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I've had test taking anxiety since I was in the third grade. I knew all of the nursing knowledge , but fear stood in my way. All this woman did for me was reinforce the things I already knew.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ -I am smart.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ -I am competent.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ -This test does not define me.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ -I am beautiful.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ -I am capable.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ -I will pass this test!⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I posted these affirmations everywhere! In my car , on the fridge , in my fridge {I spent a lot of time in the fridge during this time of my life..} , in my car , on my mirrors , and in my textbooks. And y'all , it just took having a little more faith in myself to be successful. I needed to give myself grace. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ And not to toot my own horn here.. but I think I am a pretty damn good nurse despite the failures and trials I went though.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ And darling , you will be too. If you are a nursing student , or a struggling graduate , or heck , a new nurse.. you can do it. Repeat after me.. "I am ________! I am a badass , I am knowledgable , I am capable! I will be successful in everything I do! I will not let fear stand in my way!"⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ If I can do it.. you can do!

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When I think about it , I probably was “living my best life” this year...But oh man , was it tough! From finally starting The cosmetology program (that I had been wanting to do for years) this year , committing 42.67 hours every week for 40 weeks , to be with classmates I hated (except for a few haha; you know who you are) teachers who were not always true to their word , being frustrated because “I couldn’t get it” , crying (A lot!) , panic attacks , anxiety , my hair falling out , not sleeping enough , or eating well , but also meeting and becoming friends with the smartest , most motivated , hardworking , encouraging , group of girls and at the same time getting amazing grades! I had all A’s in my classes and on tests (for the most part) which was surprising since I’ve never been a “stellar “ student. Meanwhile , I worked 30ish hours a week , til 2am sometimes on weekdays and had to be up at 6! Like , I was BUSY and sooooo tired! I literally don’t know how I did it! On top of that , I still managed to travel and try and have a little bit of a social life! I traveled to Mexico 6 times , went to Vegas , Fresno and LA , attended educational clases , and countless concerts! Whaaat! How the hell did I do that in a year round program along with working Idk. I just decided that I was gonna make the best of my time , all the time (most of the time lol)! Obviously aspects of my life suffered , things I said before like my health and overall well being , my tornado room , and well I could’ve studied more , but , I did a lot this year and I did well , and I’m proud. Now , I have 5 days left of school until I graduate and I’m stressed af , but I know it’ll be alright. I made it this far! So wish me luck on finals and #lifeaftercosmetologyschool Also I must mention that I had the BEST teachers these last 8 weeks of cosmetology school and I’m so thankful for that! Here’s me at a reggae festival wearing my favorite outfit lounging in the sunshine ❤️ #cosmetology #futurecosmetologist #isurvived #hardestyearofmylife #toughyear #livingmybestlife #travel #mexico #fulltimestudent #schoolandwork #whatayear #sleepwhenimdead

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Wednesdays are my long days on campus. I leave the house at 9:30 and class isn’t over until 5:50 this evening. Meaning I’m gone...all day. I miss my babies already , but being able to sit in peace and work on school or build my business is kind of nice. . Being a full time college student and momma to 3 under 3 isn’t easy by any means...even if 3/5 of my classes are online. Right now , I’m in the middle of school , raising children , growing my team , selling our first house , working on my postpartum journey , and learning how to repair my marriage. . I’m stressed. I’m irritable (thank you Mother Nature for gracing me with the thing I haven’t had in 11 months 😅). BUT I’m getting s*** done and smiling at everyone who looks at me today because I want to. Happiness is a choice. I vow to always choose happiness even in the midst of this stressful , crazy season of life.

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|19.04.19|⁣ @destinationmedschool inspired me to write about how I ended up studying veterinary in Poland (make sure to check out his account for great content!) - and I thought to share it with you here as well.. ⁣ ⁣ 𝗜 𝘁𝗼𝗹𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗮 𝘃𝗲𝘁 , 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗹𝗮𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝗱 𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲.⁣ ⁣ Coming from a country that only has 𝐨𝐧𝐞 school for veterinary medicine (Norway) , made the road to becoming a vet seem unbelievably hard. 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐦𝐞 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐬𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 , 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐯𝐞𝐭 𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥. A part of me started to believe them. People spend years redoing irrelevant subjects to be able to have the grades to get in. ⁣ ⁣ One day some friends of mine made me realise that studying abroad was an option , and that it was way easier to get in. A lot of places in Europe offers great education , and I could recommend it to anyone having trouble getting into school or just want a new challenge! I’ve had the best years of my life so far living and studying in Poland! ⁣ ⁣ I must admit I’ve always felt like an outcast , and never really fit in anywhere. That was until I got in to my dream studies , in an amazing city with like-minded people. I’ve finally found a place where people understand me , respect me and are rooting for me. ⁣ ⁣ To anyone out there struggling , remember that it’s always a way , and to never give up on your dream✨⁣ ⁣ 𝐘𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐞𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐫 𝐝𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐅𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 , 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐝𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐢𝐭❤️

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I’ve lived frugally my entire life in hopes of living a better life than my parents. Now that I’m 20 years old , I’m following my heart and doing what I want. I’ve learned that it’s ok to put yourself first sometimes , and that it can actually be mentally beneficial. So buy those shoes , that purse , that trip to France. You’re only young once. Live your life in the best way that you possibly can while still maintaining all of your responsibilities👩🏽‍🔬👩🏽‍🎓 #fulltimeresearcher #fulltimestudent #workhardplayharder

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Happy New Year 🥂 ▫️ ▫️ What a year it’s been. I completed my studies at Langara College , I got accepted to UBC , started my position as Company Director @luminesquedance , watched my best friend @abbeydutt get married , continued to run my own personal training business @move.with.mara.fitness , and created a wonderful space within our home with @jackrep1fitness . 2020 , Bring it ON! ▫️ ▫️ #2020 #happynewyear #resolutions #fulltimestudent #langaracollege #ubc #movewithmara #herewego #kinesiology #luminesquedance #businessowner